“The past 3 days really have been amazing for me. I knew I believed in God before, but I’ve never felt this deeply and purely connected to Him. I feel changed. I’m a whole new person.
At first, it was hard. I felt uncomfortable doing things like standing up and singing, or raising my hands in the air. But as the time passed, it got easier. I began standing and pouring out in song. Then I started raising my hands up to the sky while I sang. Gradual progressions led to the most amazing and utterly peaceful time of my life.
When I kneeled at the altar, I felt such a strong sense of peace wash over me. It was so overwhelming, I broke down and was completely sobbing, huddled down on my hands and knees, on the floor in front of the stage. I never thought I would have the courage to do something like that, but I did. He called me there. And I didn’t hesitate. Then, the speaker, Pastor Micah MacDonald was talking about when Jesus called Lazarus back to life and told the people to help him take off his grave clothes because they were no longer his. He gave us all a piece of paper and said, ‘This is your grave clothes. Write everything that has been weighing you down. And I mean everything. God already knows it all, so don’t hold back’. We wrote everything on that paper and then when we were told to give it to a leader and let them read it, I didn’t think I could. I poured my heart out on there. I wrote everything from my past. Things that nobody in my life knows about. But I did it. I gave the paper to a leader and she read it and prayed for me. She held me and cried with me. She felt my pain and showed me that I’m not alone. But I knew that was God’s doing. I knew He was using her as a vessel to spread His love to me and support me. And I’m so thankful. I feel so loved. And then when I traded my paper with my friend, he hugged me and ripped it up and cried with me and told me that it doesn’t define me and that’s not who I am, and I did the same for him. That broke me down so far, but in the most relieving way. Then after all of our papers were ripped up, we threw them on the floor and jumped and danced on top of them while singing God’s praise. Every single one of us left our heart and soul on that floor. We screamed our lungs out in the Word of God. And we’ve been redeemed.
The final message from Pastor Micah was about the metaphor of throwing the towel in. That metaphor no longer exists in my walk with God. I left my towel on the floor today and there’s no going back. My journey with God is permanent and everlasting.
There wasn’t a single service that didn’t make me cry while I was at Breakaway. That’s how strong and present God was with each and every one of us in the room. Pastor Micah and the worship team spoke about powerful things. Things that hit really close to home for me. They talked about broken families and abusive households. They talked about mothers who only care about pleasing their husband, and in turn, neglect their very own kids. They talked about illness and disease, and how it’s Satan’s way of trying to take over. But the greatest disease that has ever been known to man is sin. It cripples us and tears us away from our Heavenly Father. It chains us in dark rooms, with shackles on our feet. It physically and mentally restrains us from getting close to Him. But sin is not unforgivable. Our God is one of love. He is one of acceptance and forgiveness. He will never deny a single one of His children. All we have to do is believe and trust in Him. “You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you. Trust in the LORD forever, for the LORD GOD is an everlasting rock.” (Is. 26:3-4)
You see, all we have to do is trust and believe in Him. Surrender to Him and be honest with Him, and you will never be failed.
This truly has been the greatest experience of my life. I watched God first hand. I watched as He healed the broken and fathered the fatherless. I witnessed His miracles at work. I was in the very room where He stood and healed my friend’s knees that she’s been struggling with since she was young. I am a witness of God. And I will NOT let Him go unnoticed.
I gave my life to God over these past 3 days. I’m completely devoted to Him. And I will NOT give up. My life has gained such a greater meaning now that my eyes are open to Him.
Thank you, Lord. Thank you for everything. For showing me how gracious and truly divine you are. For allowing me to share your presence with so many like-minded people. For even just letting me know you, Lord. I love you and cherish you. There is no one else that I need more than you. I just want you. I will continue to spread your Word until the moment I take my final breath, for you are my Savior. Your power and presence is undeniable, Lord. And I’m so thankful to be able to witness it and watch you at work. My life is not complete without you. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to have this eye-opening and utterly peaceful experience; I am forever changed. You are true, Lord, and you are good. You are so so good. From now on, I will promise to follow you. NOTHING can or will stand in my way. I love you, Lord. I just want you.”